Wednesday, March 31, 2004

well.. it has been a few days after the sad thing happen le.. not so sad le, coz kinda get over liao.. but i noe tt i haven't completely gotten over yet.. trying very hard to smile more, to appear to be happy.. but.. nvm.. well.. now waiting for BT1 results.. coz think will do badly lorz.. spent my time on bball.. now regretted.. coz not quite worth.. but it's ok lar.. it's over.. only got back phy.. well.. i passed.. but then didn't get my target lorz.. ya.. dunno y.. these few days, very easily affected by ppl around me.. any small changes in their attitude jus put me off.. any sianness made me more sian.. then today noe the guys finalized team.. same as gals.. only 6 J2s & there are 5 centers.. quite sad for those who din get in.. afterall, we worked so hard le.. well.. yupx... i will try to be happy.. & i am trying very hard lorz.. but there are some stuff tt jus stopped me from even trying sometimes.. the attitude she gives.. the look that she gave me.. i really dunno wad to say.. i have tried to accept everyone's differences le lorz.. i have tried lorz.. but she jus make me feel extra, juz becoz i dun get into the team?! tt's so unfair!! told ppl tt i will have mood swings this week.. so try to cheer me up.. well.. i am trying not to be affected by others mood, hm.. but somehow.. or shld i jus be anti-social for one day.. dun talk & jus be a loner.. will it help? i really dunno.. i am still at a lost.. i feel tt i am jus trying to please everyone, & make everyone happy, but i think i failed..

Time to Love. Y
8:09 PM