today din go to sch.. coz not feeling well.. so went to see doc in the afternoon.. ya. she said tt i am too stress.. was quite puzzled.. coz i dun feel stress at all.. everyone says so.. but then i realise.. i think i am stress.. hm... how can i not be stress when i have to do so many things.. & when results not very gd.. jus easily fed up.. feel that i am going mad.. i was so fed up jus now tt i cry.. and it was jus over a small matter.. and ya.. i dunno y.. i feel disappointed.. after hearing some stuff.. i dun look stress or when there is no reason for me to be stress.. it DOESN'T mean that i am not!!

well.. today is a bad bad day!! bh went for comp.. so a little sianz.. quite worried for pitz & bh.. ya... today had a dialogue session with Miss K's bro.. very sucky!! he's blatantly rude & politically incorrect as said by parvinder.. strongly agree! he din even respect our teacher!! tt's so.. ARGH!! pissed by him.. think many ppl quite pissed lar.. cant stand him!! hm.. dunno y.. got a feeling tt bh is not feeling gd.. i jus feel tt way... though he's appearing to be absolutely fine~ but nvm.. if he wans to tell me, he will.. but if dun wan.. i will not force him or pester him to tell me.. hm.. dunno why.. feel extremely disturbed.. a little sad & tired.. a little scared.. and not secured..

well.. feel very tired these few days.. need lots of sleep!! hm.. want to sleep for very long time to cover my lack of sleep.. well.. kinda slack this weekend, at least there aren't so much work to do.. hm.. ya.. hm.. went lib ytd with bh, coz can't go home.. haha.. went to read some crafts bks, and we started learning a nice thing.. quite arty.. well.. we are suppose to see who can finish it 1st.. haha.. then bh very funny lar.. his house got no string & satay sticks.. dunno how he do lar.. so.. of coz.. i finish 1st & gave him today.. haha.. i win~ well.. having someone to love is really great!!

well.. feel very tired these few days.. need lots of sleep!! hm.. want to sleep for very long time to cover my lack of sleep.. well.. kinda slack this weekend, at least there aren't so much work to do.. hm.. ya.. hm.. went lib ytd with bh, coz can't go home.. haha.. went to read some crafts bks, and we started learning a nice thing.. quite arty.. well.. we are suppose to see who can finish it 1st.. haha.. then bh very funny lar.. his house got no string & satay sticks.. dunno how he do lar.. so.. of coz.. i finish 1st & gave him today.. haha.. i win~ well.. having someone to love is really great!!

well.. after the nicoll highways collapse... i really feel that life is fragile.. u nv knoe wat's going to happen the very next minute.. u will nv thought tt the rd tt u travel across everyday is going to collapse one day.. imagine tt u are in the plane tt crashed into the world trade center, or one of those who were trapped in collapsed building a few decades ago.. these are things no one thot of.. well.. i think it's really important to spend life fruitfully.. if not u will really regret.. & i do not want to regret one day.. hm.. well.. life is getting very stress nowadays.. coz A's coming le.. hm... but if u start studying.. u wun regret.. oh ya.. & i dun wan to end up crying over my results.. so must start working hard le~ :)

i am 18 le.. woohoo~ so bh cant say tt i am a kid.. -bleah- well, it's kinda special this yr.. maybe coz it's 18th bday.. legal le.. haha.. well.. hm.. best present this yr is my mum's present.. coz for past yrs.. it's jus a cake... but... this yr, she bought me a pink wallet & a small bag.. so sweet.. so pink.. love them.. i nearly cried.. coz i was so touched.. well.. ya.. bh is jus so sweet.. he gave everything tt i once said i feel like having.. things tt i really like.. & of coz his heart la.. hm.. so touched by the ppt he made.. nearly cried.. so nice & sweet.. hm.. love him too~ he's always there to make me happy.. :) hm.. had 3 cakes today.. one from bball, one from class & one from my gang.. haha.. 3 diff cakes.. feel so fat now.. okie.. bballers gave me a wallet from the wallet shop.. think kinda ex.. sec sch sis gave me bikini & a long skirt (sounds gal).. bh.. gave me many things.. hm.. class gave me a big mug, chopsticks & spoon.. perfect combi to eat noodles.. hm.. yannie they all gave me a BIG pillow.. so sweet & it's pink.. nicey.. ya.. & huiyi.. sick still come out to meet me.. *touched* she gave me a handphone accessories with my name.. ya.. handmade card.. sweety.. well received many msgs from many ppl.. how nice.. ya... i am jus too happy.. happy 18th birthday to me!! loveya ppl..

well... these 2 days very happy lorz.. celebrated my bday lor.. with bh.. nice.. & very sweet lar.. had a walk with him ytd.. quite nice.. long time nv spend so much time tgt le.. :) yupz.. today went to airport again.. so nice.. b4 tt, we took a pic.. very nice.. got shooting star.. i am so happy today.. think it's very romantic lar.. thx dear..

I love u too~

well.. today is a tired day.. coz ran alot for pe.. so tiring lar.. legs quite tired lorz.. ya.. bh went to see doc.. haix.. he ar.. :( but nvm.. think he will be fine soon.. yupz.. pon s paper today to go out with bh, coz no one attending lessons with me.. haha.. went out with bh lor.. town area.. ya.. quite ok lor.. jus tt i am quite tired.. hm.. well.. it's jus a tiring there.. -shag-

well.. not very happy today, coz of the principal.. wad a new rule to set?! no supporters?!!! fine~ anyway, they won.. sa vs ac : 75 - 9.. they trash the team again.. hm.. criket won too.. happy for them.. but bh got injured! haix.. told him to be careful.. hm.. kinda worried.. think i have ill-treated him.. so sorry.. well.. hm.. dunno how serious is his injuries.. but noe tt quite serious lor.. :(
ya.. had home visit today.. went to a special sch.. ya.. think we are too fortunate le.. they are ppl with multi disablities.. kinda sad.. ya.. was doing some cleaning there lorz.. hm.. quite tired.. coz have to take the pail here and there..
then went to cousin house for her to experiment my hair.. haha.. it turn out to be funny.. haha.. then cut hair.. wow.. hair become shorter.. well..
hm.. well.. bh.. take gd care of urself k... dun wanna see u injured.. -hugz-

hm.. well.. it does not matter to me anymore.. think it's kind of impact to u.. but really.. i dunno wad to do, i dun even noe wat i can do to help.. the only i can do is to give u the time tt u really need..
well.. actions speak louder than words.. so.. ya.. i will try to be more understanding... hm.. i will try to..

i am not as understanding as wat i seem to be.. i have many diff thoughts deep inside me.. i am strong outside, but fragile inside.. at the same time, i can stand up fast by myself.. no matter how hard it is.. i will also overcome it.. many diff feelings are going thru me now.. i found out many things.. ya.. someone told me tt it is very impt to feel the truth, ur own beliefs.. but.. i dunno wad's the truth & wad i believe in.. he also said tt even if we cannot turn back time, the past can reappear again.. the feeling is so familiar.. but.. i am confused.. ya.. i am happy with wat i have now.. no regretz...

hm.. more than one day nv see bh le.. he is now in Malaysia.. so far!! but nvm.. he will be back soon, which is tml.. haix.. miss him badly lar.. no one to give me morning & night msg.. phone seems so quiet.. argh!! really lor.. wondering wat he is doing there.. muz be meeting xiao hui.. haha.. well.. the day seems so long.. had to play bball at night, coz i too sianz le.. oh ya.. today is SA gals 1st match.. trashed MI.. 95 vs. 13.. hm.. guys won too but they played badly.. hm.. my mama says tt i am becoming thinner le.. haix.. where got? aiyo.. think need to slim down more lor.. bh.. i am waiting for u to come back..

well.. today got back econs, my worse paper.. failed the essays.. ya.. so got a D.. for a s paper student.. haha... so funny!! overall BT1 results: A- maths, C- chem & phy, D- econs & C5 for gp.. well, results seem ok.. ya guess so.. only happy with my maths results coz very few ppl got A.. but then for econs.. a great heartache to me.. controlled my tears, so din cry.. saw pit cried, and she's very sad.. she din pass all her sub.. so she's quite sad.. din noe wat we can do.. so sorry.. yupx.. i was sad too.. but.. i think i dun need consolation.. coz after a while, i will reflect & recover le.. coz no matter how u console me, u will jus make me feel like crying.. & i tried so hard not to cry..

ya.. this week is start of the bball season.. ya.. they training hard.. but the J1s have got stupid attitude.. "too tired, so cant go for training" wat kind of shit is tt?! saw them exchanging number mates gifts, wearing the new jerseys, etc. a little insensitive to us when they were toking abt no. mates stuff.. but.. cant do anything abt it.. ya.. was busy doing the gifts for them for the past few days.. finally, no need to cut papers le.. yeah!! oh ya.. received a card from huijie.. nearly cried, coz he reminded me of the sad thing.. :( hm.. well.. this has been a bad week for me lorz.. hopefully.. i will :) more..

well.. bh din do well for his BT1, dun really noe how to console others... so bought smitten for him to cheer him up... & accompany him.. well, hopes tt he will be happy when he sees smitten.. coz it's a special bear~

I wan to hold ur hands forever. . .

well... today got back some papers le... ya.. bh quite sad.. coz he din do well.. think he's very sad.. think i kind of lousy, coz i dunno how to console ppl, but i reallie tried my best le.. hopes tt he really cheer up.. jus wan to see him smile.. jus wan him to be happy.. think tt's gd enough.. think i am a selfish gf.. i need a bf to console me.. but i cant console anyone.. ya.. i will try my best to.. hopefully will succeed la.. quite worried for him too.. it's like.. um.. the reults really affected him alot.. jus like when i noe tt i din get into the team.. hm.. come to think of tt.. ya.. actually, quite lucky tt i din get into the team.. coz can really concentrate on studies.. coz A lvl is 95% !! coz must make the right choice.. -hugz-