today is a bad day.. ya.. had 2 papers.. and dun have to say how it was.. this time maths cant get A le.. confirm lorz.. and ya.. today.. 2 most impt guys in my life cried.. one is my bro and the other is bh. bro cried today.. when i was eating.. and he din eat of coz.. he quarrelled with his dear again.. was crying in front of me lar.. haix.. couldn't do anything to help.. bh too.. he had a headache.. and he was not in gd mood.. yet, i cant help in anyway.. haix.. cant help any of them.. kinda sad.. now no mood to study lorz.. :( maybe study later ba.. after 10.. now trying to distress~

oh no!! tml is the big day.. and wat am i doing here?! who cares man.. this is only BT2, dun really take it very hard.. coz know it myself lar.. this month only conc on bball and bball.. so studies.. only kinda started this week.. and actually.. these few days.. ya.. ppl keep saying tt i dun have to worry.. coz i am smart.. haha.. not true k.. jus hoping tt i can escape thru this time again.. honestly, i am not smart.. jus lucky, coz caught the right qn..hm.. think definitely die for econs lar.. essay? shit man.. feeling very tired.. shag.. oh ya.. going to wear specs soon i guess.. but kinda lazy to go make.. so yar.. give me a few more weeks ba.. no worries man.. when kwokz call me today, i realise i haven study transition elements!! die liao.. hm.. think going to slp soon.. so better finish my phy.. wish me gd luck pals.. -sigh-

ya.. still toking to bh online.. and read ben's blog.. he composed poems for his dearz.. very nice and very very sweet.. ya.. very happy for him, thou dun really noe him lar..
then bh oso say many things, that make me feel so touched.. *sobsob* he's jus so sweet.. his nicks "my search will end from today onwards", "i have everyting the moment i have you" reallie make me feel loved.. 'this is the first time i love someone so much' :) thx dear.. for everything that u have done, everything u have given me.. showers of love.. hugz and kisses.. still rem the time u gave me a peck on my cheek.. and i blushed.. couldn't stop smiling.. the very 1st craft that we learnt tgt.. not sth big, but sth impt and precious to me.. jus wanna tell u that..
i will.. love u with all heart
i love u..
-muackz-

hm.. stayed at home to study econs.. it jus sucks.. nearly slept for 3 times.. cannot take it.. ya.. have decided wad to do for bh le.. on 1st august.. wahaha.. let him guess ba.. decided only.. haven started doing yet.. well.. he also planned wad to do, and where to go le.. but haha.. jus pray tt nth goes wrong ba.. oh ya.. dear got an admirer.. he kinda guess who the person is le, but then me.. dunno who she is, so forget it ba.. um.. dear seems quite excited abt this unknown person.. wahaha.. but nvm lar.. hm.. was designing the thingy for san now.. coz dun feel like studying mah.. so hm.. hope she will like it.. some handmade stuff.. haha.. if she reads this, then she will start thinking le.. ;) hm.. scared.. think will fail econs.. coz no confident.. haix.. think wun have any A this time too.. but nvm.. i am happy can le! :)

hm.. these few days are mugging days, coz not much time left.. think this time will do quite badly, coz got many stuffs not done.. hopefully, can be as lucky as b4.. doin as well as b4.. well.. ya.. think a little tired, but nvm lar.. going to be over soon.. ya.. my hubby is kinda funny, coz he keep dozing off at my hse.. wahaha.. think he too tired.. and ya, watched pinocchio on ice ytd, really cant stand those noisy kids out there.. argh! hubby was late ytd.. haha.. not angry but quite happy thou, coz he was nv late.. haha.. yupz.. really very happy with him :) feeling loveD.. ok.. BT2 coming le.. scary.. it seems quite scary, coz everyone is so hardworking.. *praying*

hey.. today.. stayed at home to do some maths.. yupz.. din feel well so nv go to the maths consultation.. oh well.. but guess it's ok lar.. hm.. today is pain, pain and pain.. hm.. bh came in the afternoon.. with his newpaper again.. haha.. he become tortoise le.. :) yupz.. hm.. think he is very tired lorz.. coz he fell asleep on my sofa.. hm.. well.. i blushed today.. coz he said thAt i am very loved.. ya.. then.. haha.. then he started laughing at me.. *paiseh* aiya.. think i really feng feng dian dian le.. dunno y.. my laughter also become weird le.. but nvm.. coz bh wun mind.. :P finally.. his parents back le.. so kelian lorz.. was hungry and lonely for so long.. hm.. tml going to watch disney on ice.. yeah~ sounds like kid.. but nvm.. feeling a little excited.. coz going with bh.. and ya.. a date!! missing him rite now..

wahaha.. think i keep bullying bh nowadays.. ya.. guess really become crazier and happier.. haha.. bullied him in front of my mum.. wahaha.. yupz.. think he too in love with me le.. so wont wan to make me sad.. and so he let me bully.. ;) ya.. he is going to marry me.. so gd.. so no need to worry tt i will grow fat le.. yeah!! hm.. feel loved.. very gd.. wahaha..

well.. went spotlight today to buy sth lor.. den went to bh house.. think really going crazy le.. coz keep laughing non-stop.. haha.. ya.. kinda cute today.. coz bh cook for me! finally lorz.. ya.. the way he cook very funny lar.. really lorz.. cant tahan.. seem as if he nv cook b4.. haha.. den ya.. he cook quite nice lar.. haha.. ya.. he making sth for me!! so sweet! :) happy lor... yupz... think really very happy today.. but quite sorry lar.. make him pei me go PS and make him so guilty too.. sobsobz.. but nvm.. coz he's going to love me 10 times more.. haha.. oh ya.. think i tok alot nowadays.. must keep quiet le.. sheesh....

woohoo.. finally.. today is the last match le.. well.. think someone prayed for me ba.. coz they din play rough as expected.. haha.. and ya.. no major injuries lorz.. ya.. someone pushed me down lar.. my ex teammate.. dun think she did it on purpose lorz.. jaws not pain le.. just tt shoulder got a blueblack i guess.. ya.. and my little toe nail break!! pain lar.. limping when walking back.. well.. nearly got punished today.. luckily we played well in the end.. ya.. was quite high after the match.. think making ex gombak players jealous.. haha.. coz we were taking pix.. haha.. cute man.. hm.. think must really thank those who betrayed gombak lor, by team hopping.. it's becoz of them, i knoe new frens & better players.. this new team was like properly form less than 2 months ago lorz.. and we noe each other for less than 3 months.. and ya.. got the "spark" there.. thou not those can share secrets one.. but at least can gossip.. like yunn sin and jessica talking abt fashion; rachel clinging to me and bullying shuxian.. was fun lorz.. how we bargain with coach and stuff.. it is a better grp of ppl than them.. ya.. more fun lar.. thou i really wan to play with my ex teammates.. well.. no choice ba.. i am still quite happy.. coz they are really a cute bunch of ppl.. but too playful at times.. :) think will have some gatherings at the end of yr.. coz they wanna chalet.. woohoo..Gombak RuLeZ!! :) ya.. my honeY was a little cute.. coz he fell.. aiyo.. and ya.. think it hurts.. so dun laugh at him le.. and he quite lonely lar.. haha..

had a class bbQ last nite.. think quite successful lar.. comparing to the previous gatherings.. ya.. quite sad for pit & i feel like slapping tt guy lar.. argh~ yupz.. later got training at 4.15pm.. hm.. then will play my very last match le.. for youth cup lar.. hm.. well~ not very happy leh.. dunno y.. ya.. my bro going to watch my match today.. coz he scared sth happen to me.. my bro quite gd lar.. :) dun understand y ppl dun keep their promises.. argh~ nvm.. not going to care.. haix!!

hm.. had a match few hrs ago.. yup.. won.. finally one match.. coz like should win yuhua too.. but nvm.. won MJC today.. yupz.. think the team play very well.. hm.. but, MJC ppl too skinny le.. coz their elbow very pain lar.. so now.. got dunno how many blueblacks on my arms lar.. pain leh.. and leg muscles feel a little tight.. think like going to cramp like tt.. hmz.. scored today! finally lorz.. tt was nice shot anyway.. :) haha.. yupz.. then wat i thot was rite.. chong chee going to aim me on saturday match.. hm.. coach told me tt he received some news.. chong chee goin to defend shuxian & yunn sin very tightly.. and they going to aim me.. well.. expected.. but nvm.. i can take it.. but if they too nasty, i will pay them baq.. and ya.. jus hope tt i wun get injured.. *pray* think will get someone down to protect me.. actually.. to carry me if i injured lar.. haha.. wish me gd luck!

hm.. have my last CIP today lorz.. quite efficient.. shelved 6 trolleys of bks and one of magazines.. haha.. fast.. but then still pissed at ytd's match.. ARGH! then realise my hair got even shorter.. worse feelings man.. ya.. then had Potato Gration with sandra.. yummy.. nice.. haha~ den went to bh hse lor.. coz san cant go kwokz house.. so nvm.. went to bh hse to study.. ya.. realise i finish most of my chem.. and ya.. stayed at his home for dinner for the very 1st time.. his mum is a gd cook.. nice food.. stayed at his house till 10plus lorz.. was doing many love quizes and tests.. very funny.. and i think kinda sweet.. BUT, i still dunno wad he is making!! he's so bad.. dun tell me.. :( well.. anyway.. was feeling better le.. now not so pissed.. must really thank him lorz. :) love him always..

i have a match today.. a sure win match.. BUT!! we met the stupid referee who hated my coach.. kaoZ.. damn pissed.. the no. 9 played till so rough! and so obvious fouls lor.. and he din catch.. wat the hell?! den.. make till my fren so pissed with full of injuries~ nearly had a fight! jus feel like giving tt gal a punch! stupid butch! then.. still so cocky! then another act innocent.. wahlau.. wad kind of ppl is this.. but was quite guilty.. coz hit someone chest accidentally lorx.. think she thinks tt i do it on purpose la.. heckx.. jus feel like killing someone now~ then after the match.. most of their dear dear came.. so jealous! but nvm.. argh~ still cant calm down.. damn it man!

well.. today is kinda bz lorz.. morning got CIP.. ya.. shelve and shelve and shelve.. then went to cut hair.. haha.. was bad.. was my cousin thot i wan very thin hair.. so.. in the end.. too thin.. and she trim abit.. so now.. cant tie.. and.. hair is 3 inches shorter now.. wahaha.. but think it's quite ok lar.. then went to amk cc, meet yingzi to see janet play.. aljunied vs combined(white).. aljunied lost.. but nvm lar.. at least i guess. she played well.. so ya.. went to eat dinner with her and yingzi.. then tok till 11 plus..and reached home ard 11.50pm.. tok and tok and tok.. talk abt many stuff.. so ya.. got to understand janet better.. and noe why she cried when i ask her that qn.. and how yingzi and janet think.. and ya.. they said they discussed who will get married 1st in the team.. was saying me or stace.. coz stace too innocent and easily cheated; and me.. abit motherly.. diaoz... haha.. funny ppl.. but.. well had a gd tok.. very nice one.. still love them as much.. seeing janet play.. still as exciting.. hm.. ya.. love them man.. ya.. din see bh for like 2days.. and ya.. wun see him for 5days ba.. think must try to get used to it.. :)

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well.. went to yan's house today.. to eat.. and to celebrate pit's bday.. tok alot today :) and eat alot.. her mum's cooking is nice! yupz.. well.. haiz. worried for bh, coz he kinda sad.. but couldn't be there for him.. jus wan him to cheer up.. and ya.. take gd care of himself.. the rest.. dun wana say much le.. cheer up everyone!!

well.. 3 yrs is long.. but i will be waiting.. waiting for the day he propose.. quite determined to marry him lorz.. thou many things can happen in 3 yrs.. and it's NS.. so ya.. but no worries.. i love bh alotz.. really too much le.. dun wanna lose him.. so.. ya.. dun worry.. think positively k.. yupz.. wait for me!!

well.. saw my cousin after very long le.. hm.. she changed after tt incident.. tt painful one.. she kinda overcome, and became stronger.. if i were the one.. that's it.. i wun be able to overcome the fear.. and the horror.. ya.. strong and mature.. she is ya.. think she knoes alot.. ya..she staying over at my hse today..:) well.. now change topic le.. bh..kinda stress.. dunno how to help him lorz.. jus wan him to be happy.. really happy.. dun wan him to worry too much. and ya.. i will be a wonderful gf.. i will try.. dun worry.. definitely, u are great!! loveya always

well.. 1st match today.. good workout thou we lost.. hm.. yupz.. play till very happy lar.. woo~ but.. hm.. did sth bad.. coz i think i tore someone's jersey.. wahaha.. Oopz.. nvm.. ya.. enjoyed.. well.. was quite pissed when belly told me tt she was benched.. wad the hell.. this is a sure lose match, when the score widens, so shld let every player play.. wad's he trying to do.. my idol lorz.. now, haix.. disappointment man.. and it's not as if belly din go for training.. :( hm.. well. kinda shag now.. very tired.. oh ya.. tml can go dating!! yeah.. too long nv go out with bh le.. so kinda looking forward to tt.. :)

well.. bh ask if i am not feeling gd today.. coz i look as if i am not in gd mood.. perhaps.. maybe.. i din noe tt i wld get affected by wad happen in the noon.. was tt really him? thot he did change.. i really dun believe tt it's him.. i dun believe tt he actually scolded me.. for no reason? i jus said "hi" and ya.. mail him abt the gathering with jolyn? wad's wrong? y must he call me by tt name?! i am very sad.. thot we could be frens.. and all along was ok.. but y suddenly.. but if it's really him.. i am disappointed.. very disappointed.. he.. frens no more.. i am sorry dear.. for affecting ur mood in any way.. yupz.. think shld go slp.. after slping.. everything will be alright again..

hey.. i pon econs today!! ya.. a little guilty, but wanna study instead of going to sch..ya.. hm.. mus get at least 2 A this time.. my target!! working towards the goal.. must get A for maths.. to maintain... yupz.. well.. dunno y.. kinda dun like econs.. should have drop the s paper.. anyway, i wun do well for tt.. y they wan me to take & dun allow anyone to drop.. a bit the unfair.. haix.. maths s too.. kinda hard.. think must get at least merit lor.. hm.. well.. gd luck for those woring hard now.. u will reap wad u sow.. :) jiayou~ esp to those playing youth cup, coz tt thingy takes up abt half the hols.. must find time to mug too.. ya.. coach wans us to win at least 2 matches.. think can lorz... my team not tt lan afterall.. :) praying hard now..

yupz.. today kinda sian, coz got training.. so sianz.. hm.. coach got pissed many times today.. esp when one of the players fall.. coz of poor defence.. well, got punished many times lar.. sian diaoz.. ya.. tml got econs!! worse day man.. haven done anything lorx.. :( dun feel like going lar.. but no choice~ hm.. bh not feeling gd today... quarrel with his mum again... hope he's feeling better now.. kinda miss him lor.. he's playing mahjong now, haha.. must laugh at him.. coz he's so careless, dun even noe how he got his blueblack.. wahaha.. hm.. this sunday is the start of tournament le.. kinda happy with my grouping, coz can play with ajc & mjc.. but it's kinda hard to go 2nd round.. but nvm lar.. try our best can le...