Well.. went out with my 3 sis after the service learning reflections.. yupz.. think service learning is wonderful, coz u really learn a lot.. and u get to know how others feel.. YuQiang.. Jiayou.. the society will not leave u behind, everything will be fine.. he is a 11yrs old kid, suffering from multiple disabilities.. shall not say much, coz think will cry.. thank you for “accepting” me.. yupz.. gossip a lot today at Subway.. haha.. laughed too much, and walk too much, now got backache.. hm.. ya.. heard sth.. and it’s too much this time! I think I’ve had enough, I can’t take it anymore.. this time it’s too obvious.. shall not say much abt the details le, coz I think I know can le..

 Not Invited? Not welcomed? Excluded? Ya..  I guess so.. haha.. siao le..

HAha.. Everything is so funny..  jus cannot stop laughing..

Well.. went to watch belly’s concert at Singapore Conference Hall.. haha.. she’s so cute!! Haha… but den got one ah pek.. pissed me off.. irritating.. but nvm.. over le.. oh.. today, dear came my house.. haha.. it has been so long since we spent time tgt.. haha.. very funny lar.. then same out with a phrase.. Lao Shu Ai Tou Chi.. haha:).. oh ya.. i think i am not going to care abt that thing le.. so now must thank some ppl.. 1st is of coz my dear. for lending me his shoulder when i cried, and then to kwokz.. for being sensitive and concern.. hm.. and huijie.. for listening and asking me.. think he's sensitive too!! and saN! thou she dunno.. but she did ask!! haha.. and ya.. will listen to huijie.. dun let this thing affect me.. coz i am a 4 'A's gal.. haha.. so confident in me.. i will try.. :)
-hugz-

had Basketball farewell today.. so it's like too long never touch ball le.. kinda feel weird when touching the ball.. yuPz, the guys still as superb.. the j2s guys won, and we lost to our juniors.. but nvm lar.. at least we played a stressless game.. ah ma played well lar.. happy for her:)then some unhappy stuffs happen after the match.. but den was ok after awhile... took lots of pix today.. so fun lar.. then was the choosing of cap and vice-cap thingy.. kinda fun.. well.. received the J1s present for us.. um.. was kinda disappointed.. coz was not hand-made.. last yr, we made hand made stuff.. so this yr kinda strange.. but nvm lar.. din expect too much.. well.. jus feel very tired lar.. now going to sleep soon.. oh ya.. took pix with my numbermate and idol (Ivan) not really idol lar.. jus a good guy in the team.. and one of the closest i knoe from guys team.. haha.. . jus wanna thank them, for being joys to me for  the past one yr +++ and also the training tour time.. where we played and joked.. also the encouragement from each of them.. and also, consolation and the tears we shared.. too many things le lar.. basically.. jus love them too much.. -muackz-

 well.. was not feeling well since ytd, but den think no one really cares, coz they thought it was minor stuff.. yar i guess so.. today went to sch , feeling rather sick too.. den during the break, it was terrible.. coz headache pus gastric.. terrible stuff.. so went to take a green slip.. till now, still dun feel well. mum asked me to go see doc.. but den think it shld be ok.. went home to slp lar.. slp and slp and slp.. and took my specs.. hm.. clear vision.. today, Mrs Wong asked me why i did so badly this time.. well.. answered her le.. not meeting up to expectation.. always.. nowadays, i dun have the spur to move on.. kinda dishearten by many stuff.. learned sth today.. "NEVER EXPECT TOO MUCH" well.. still feel sick now.. esp after watching the news abt the abuse of chickens.. yucks! oh ya.. also realise sth, i am anti-social to class activities.. and i choose to be anti-social i guess.. sensitivity made be see and realise some impt facts.. Shin and rene are very nice ppl.. esp shin.. coz she's mature.. at least she can stands in ppl's shoe and feel for them..  ya.. if u wan to know wad i realise and discover.. be more observant in clss.. and u will notice..

CAN HE JUS LEAVE ME ALONE? CAN HE JUS CARE ABT HIS OWN THINGS? I DUN NEED HIS NAGGING! I KNOE WAD I AM DOING.. I KNOE U CARE, BUT I JUS DUN LIKE THE WAY U SHOW IT.. IT JUS PISSED ME OFF! I WOULD RATHER U NOT TALK TO ME.. COZ I CANT STAND SELFISH PPL.. ARGH

well.. went to buy some gifts today.. yah.. finally buy the gifts liaoz.. so long le.. hm..den too bus home.. but stopped  halfway at kwokz house there .. jus to hear them sing.. finally got to hear.. they are all so pro lar.. kwokz and jojo sing very well lorz.. and chinyong got style lar.. so cute.. finally cheersan up a little.. even heard my dear's singing.. haha.. FINALLY!!  wahaha.. think kinda cute lar.. yeah.. think class guys very ke-ai~ yupz.. feel better le.. but den.. not very gd nowadays, coz feel kinda sick.. headache musclesache.. wadeva lorz.. jus wanna get well..

hey... i guess.. i will be happier le lar.. i know wad i have le.. and i am happy with wad i have le.. no worries.. i am fine le.. yupz.. now going for straight As and.. trying to complete my cross-stitch as fast as possible... thx.. for all who cared.. love u guys too!

well.. this happened to be before.. had a hard time getting over it the last time.. it was really hard.. do u understand? Y must it happen again? i really dun understand ! i jus cant tolerate this kind of things.. wad wrong have i done? i have tried.. i have been sensitive.. i have changed to blame myself for everything.. i dun blame others anymore, but wad happen in the end? i have change for u my dear fren, wad else do u wan? i cant forget the incident tt happen yrs ago.. but it hasnot been on my mind for a long long time.. but becoz this happen.. the scenario is back.. all the flashes tt appear in front of me.. i hate it! i simply hate it! jus give me abreak, my dear mind.. can u jus stop thinking for a moment?

 
Well .. ytd was a half day for sch, so many ppl pon.. and due to the too many breaks in the morning.. many of them came late too.. so ya.. had only 2 lessons.. a waste of time to sch.. den ya.. went for rapture.. wow~ think it’s wonderful.. coz most of the dancers can really dance well.. teachers too like Tan VV, she’s hot.. haha.. nothing much to say, jus tt I took many pix today.. now very tired..

-sigh- today was damn sian.. coz got back Gp and i failed.. a D7.. 44%.. nvm.. then was getting the econs paper after Gp.. so quite scared too.. was very scared actually.. coz only 21% passed.. din want to be the 79%.. ya.. finally.. got back econs.. then to my horror.. i was one of the 6 who got B!! was quite happy.. but then my 2 other frenz din manage to pass.. ya.. pit was sad.. but.. din have a chance to tok to her.. ask her if she's ok.. she said ya.. but.. i noe.. haix.. was quite worried for her.. hm.. was supposed to be happy.. coz got overall ok grades.. B - maths; B - Econs; C - Chemistry; E - PHysics and D7 for Gp.. but then.. was feeling damn sad.. when carol told me tt thing.. i thot i was too sensitive.. coz san always say i am.. but this time.. i am not the only one feeling tt.. i am sure i am not too sensitve.. Y does this always happen? am i the cause? very sad now.. and will be sad for days.. think i am as sad as carol.. Y? when i needed them so much, this happens.. i cant take it.. i jus cant.. i love them so much.. but..

Hm... ppl asking me to update my blog.. here i am.. happy?! haiz.. there is only one word to describe how i feel now.. "SAd"got back Gp paper 2 today.. fAILed! 19/50.. so badly lar.. haix.. forget it coz many ppl din do well.. nvm ba.. then was supposed to go home after 5.. then saw Mrs Tan.. -duhz- have S paper today.. damn Sian diao! :( then she returned us the essay tt we did last term.. ARGH!! UNGRADED!! feel damn demoralised.. think i am not cut out to it.. i am not capable.. why did they choose me?! haix.. getting econs paper tml.. think i wun pass.. haix. . everything seems so dead for me.. nothing is making me happy.. no matter how much i try.. ok.. i update le..

well.. dun feel really gd nowadays.. actually only for ytd lar..coz got back maths, chem and a bit of phy... eh.. now only got a B & C.. phy.. dun think can get a C.. sianz.. chem was ok, maths was bad.. i noe i cant get A lar, but.. haix.. still nv got lower than A for maths b4 in major exams.. nvm.. shall work harder.. hm.. quite scared of econs.. coz the way they put it.. most did badly.. high chance of doing badly as well.. coz most ppl fail the qn2 for essay!! argh~ haix.. nvm.. shall work very hard, after i finish bh's pressie.. hm.. finally, i received his present le.. so sweet and special.. no one ever done b4.. :) oso showed him wat i am going to give him on the special day.. he was touched.. actually.. din intend to tell him.. but well.. after some hesitation, then told him le.. and even showed him how much i have completed.. hm.. very happy.. coz he is happy.. hope tt can cheer him up a little.. oh well.. think he is still guessing the 12 letters.. haha.. gd luck.. oh ya.. everyone cheer up.. :)

I juSt kNeW iT!! aLL tHanKs tO yOu!!

yupz.. was going to my ah ma hosue as usual today.. but something happen on my way there.. my bro and mum quarrelled.. pissed man.. stuck in the middle.. then my bro even ignores me.. argh! ya.. then was having lunch at redhill market.. think atmosphere became better.. but.. haix.. still weird.. went off at 5 to go david's house for class gathering.. BBq again.. nvm lar.. den was talking and rotting lar.. hm.. then started gossiping abt a girl in sajc.. hm.. think she quite kelian thou.. nvm.. hm.. yupz.. had quite a lot of fun at the bbQ.. went off at ard 10.. and meet bh at woodlands b4 he goes to kwokz house.. hm.. missed him very much.. but then um.. worried for him as well.. i wan him to be wad he used to be, the cheerful type who i always laughed at.. he's getting too quiet.. -hugz- quite guilty today, coz din go my sec sch gathering.. but um.. my good frens all nv go, so decided not to go.. hm.. ya.. going to watch soccer soon.. :)

well.. ytd had a bball gathering at sentosa.. class outing was there too, but i chose to go bball one.. coz it was set long ago.. yupz.. 1st, everyone was LATE.. supposed to meet at 10 lar.. reached at 10, and no one was there, but nvm lor.. waited 20mins plus plus.. ppl started coming.. when was abt to go, saw my 1st bf.. he was going sentosa as well.. so long nv see him le.. think 3 yrs le lorz.. yupz.. he become more shuai le, but still kinda short.. haha.. he in sp now, jus contacted him few weeks ago.. haha.. but, we din say "hi".. 1stly, becoz i wasn't sure.. next, i was shy.. haha.. yupz.. went to siloso beach at 1st, den abt sianz, so walked to palawan.. den had a great shock, coz some sch having carnival there.. so took the beach bus back to siloso again.. sian diaoz.. then we finally settled down somewhere at sunset bay.. haha.. a guy came to tok to us.. weird.. think he's interested in stace.. but nvm..
played v-ball, frisbee, bridge and some water stuffs.. haha.. 1st time playing beach volley.. hand pain.. hm.. very fun thou.. haha.. long time nv gather le, so it's kinda interesting.. den ya..oso this was my 1st time wearing biks.. feel weird.. but me wan TAN.. so who cares..
after beaching, went to have sakae at OUB building, ate alot, coz all of us extremely hungry.. ate and talk and had some craps..
oh.. den decided to go somewhere tok after dinner and go home late.. haha.. we walked to One Fullerton, to go toilet.. haha.. felt like training tour la.. so fun.. miss those times.. nice toilet anyway.. den walked to Esplanade to talk.. ya... we gossip and share our sec sch stuffs.. haha.. many things lar.. den realise janet is so timid.. went off at ard 11.30.. took cab home.. reached home late but nvm.. coz it's worth it.. :)

today went to IMM to eat Tim Sum.. then meet bh after tt.. haha.. he look quite sian.. think after that was ok le.. went to shop for some stuffs.. but couldn't find..:( nvm.. den went home, coz kinda tired.. bh was at my house again.. i was doing san's pressie.. then he looked amazed.. coz i think he is interested to learn wad i was doing.. haha.. so cute lar.. hm.. he had to go home early, and i had to meet my frens for dinner.. so ya.. went out again.. to have dinner with my gd pals.. tok some crap, den realise my tt junior slim down SO much, now she's so boney.. think there's something wrong with nj ppl.. haix.. wanted to slim down too.. but not to tt extend.. haha.. had a good time today, coz long time nv see them le.. and think quite nice to sit down to eat and crap tgt.. still loving them as much.. -muackz-

hm.. finally BT2 is over, but the outcome of results is another bad time.. well.. worse major exams ever in sa i guess.. never felt so nervous b4 and after the papers, neither feel so unprepared and low confident.. think will not do well this time.. coz all the studying came too last minute. play too much bball during the hols le.. but.. hopefully wont do worse than BT1, coz BT2 is easier than BT1 (comparing difficulty of qn).. praying very hard tt will get at least C for all.. if can, hope tt can get B for all.. haiz.. scared.. but, over le.. nothing more can be done.. well.. went dating today again, went to watch windstruck.. haha.. nice show, but bad place to watch.. hm... not realistic too.. but nvm, coz it's a movie mah.. and ya.. think getting sick le, coz whole body feeling unwell.. esp my headache.. pain pain.. think too stress.. need to distress.. hm.. today got a small thot.. was wondering y bh and i are so loving.. haha.. hm.. think got the ans.. and ya.. think many ppl envy us.. haha..
tml going sentosa with bballers!! yeah!! play play & fun fun!! can tan too~ :)