Everyday.. i jus wanna slp after work.. now suffering from backache.. pain pain.. ok.. tired le.. zzZ.. haha.. miss u guys lotz..

oh my.. this month.. my most hated month.. it reminds me of all the sadness.. and how my loved ones left me.. last yr.. i gave up a 1.5 yrs relationship.. i thought it was ok.. but i broke down in front of sandra.. it was tough for me.. and for him.. i rejected all the patch ups that e wanted.. refused to accept him again.. i knoe tat i loved him.. but thank God.. for releasing all the torture that this man gave me.. He gave me Bh.. who i love more than any guys ard.. i was so afraid tat he wld leave me.. and becoz of my stupid moods.. i dunno how to handle this relationship now.. but, i am very unsure of myself.. i dunno what i am doing.. jus feel weak.. physically and mentally..
hate all these.. all the flash backs are giving headache.. i hadnt smile for days.. i need to cry.. i need to shout.. i hate this month.. i am so afraid that this relationship will end.. becoz.. my most wonderful relationship, and the man i love most always stop and end in jan.. i dun want to be cursed.. i simply dun want..

OLD MAN!! JUST KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT.. AND DUN GIVE ME ANY NONESENSE!!

haix.. guess wad.. i am working now.. working from 9-2 at Merchant court, then 3-11 at parkview.. and i didn't have enough sleep!! so.. got flu and sore throat.. now.. i begin to feel that life jus sucks.. esp when ppl are not appreciative.. REALLY..
ytdhad a bball dinner at MERCHANT, when it's supposed to be my OFF-DAY.. haiyo.. oh well.. xj and mimi didn't come.. kinda sian diao.. think everyone still the same except for eunice.. really think she become more feminine.. yupz.. geok oso change alittle.. but not too convenient to say. hehheh..and ah ma, a little too stressed.. the rest.. not any changes.. still the same attitude, same looks, figure, dress sense.. etc. well.. it's good to get together.. but somehow.. there is a sense of loneliness even when ppl are giggling, and sharing their life stories.. hm..
well.. getting tired of work.. coz a bit overwork.. anyway.. there's this quite gd-looking guy working in Merchant with me.. we are doing the same thing, jus tat he do more rough and tough job.. he's from AC.. i only know it jus now.. jus like he only know tat i am from SA.. haha.. the AH was from SA too.. she got the same mentality as me.. but she went to Shatek.. well.. that guy is called RAY.. he was complaining abt AC forcing them to drop subjects.. haha.. he got CCDE at promos.. then must drop a sub.. aiyo.. too bad lar..
anyway.. Hskp department abit the bad.. cos they always talk behind ppl's baq.. so.. guess they talk abt me too.. coz i heard my name.. but hecks... i shall start ignoring all the nonesense.. coz they dun mean it.. it was jus a remark i supposed.. anyway, i am alreadi used to it..
yupz.. tired of living.. i need God's guidance..

Guess i am really crazy to work in hotels.. coz i am working in 2 hotels now.. parkview and merchant court.. haha.. merchant court's pay is much higher, but only working as housekeeping co-cordinator.. so abit sian.. but then parkview's pay is jus too low.. so ya.. sumitted the resign letter to parkview.. dunno if they approve.. waiting for them to tell me.. hm.. miss alot of ppl.. jus misses everyone.. esp those tat i haven seen for weeks and months.. take care everyone.. i am tired..